Cold Turkey

At this point, I will see my oncologist every three months. I'm about halfway between when I last saw him and when I'll see him again. I have never actually looked forward to a doctor's appointment before in my life, but I find myself eagerly anticipating my next visit. Every lump and bump scares the crap out of me, even though I know it's probably scar tissue or swelling from radiation. Is that headache a sign of brain mets or just aggravation? This is the longest I've been between doctor's visits since February; I was used to having my questions answered on a weekly basis! Maybe I'll grab my surgeon before she takes my port out and force her to feel my boobs. They really should ween you a little more gradually, this cold turkey stuff stinks.