Put A Lid On It

I think I've shoved all of the anxiety and craziness I let loose last week back into the box and have made a decision about the genetic testing, again. I am still not going to have the test. When I see my oncologist in November, I will ask him, "What would you do for me if I tested positive that you aren't doing now?" And unless he has some super secret drug that I can only get if I test positive, I'm just going to tell him to start doing whatever it is that he's not already. And I don't think there is anything else he can do for me in the way of treatment right now, short of my deciding to have prophylactic mastectomies. I may very well decide to do that someday, but I'm just not there right now. And if in 6 months or 5 years they come up with a cure or vaccine for BRCA+ breast cancer, then I might have the test then.