Somebody Slap Me
When all of the various pieces of this puzzle were coming together, I tried not to let myself get too excited. I knew that until everything was signed on the dotted line, something could fall through. I've signed enough dotted lines now that I'm confident everything is going to happen.
But there was another reason I was holding back, and it was cancer. While I was looking at houses and negotiating job offers, I was remembering what was happening on that day a year ago. Everything that had happened in my life for the past year was clouded by cancer. And quite honestly, there were times during the past year that I never thought any of this would happen for me. I was too scared to even let myself think about something as long term as a 30-year mortgage.
Not any more. I'm so stinkin' happy I can hardly stand to be around myself. I've got big plans, and it all starts now. I probably appreciate it all more than I would have before cancer, but that's ok -- I deserve something positive from that experience. So, feel free to slap me if I'm boring you with the details of my new kitchen or discussion of what color to paint my bathroom that doesn't even exist yet. I'm just a little excited.
But there was another reason I was holding back, and it was cancer. While I was looking at houses and negotiating job offers, I was remembering what was happening on that day a year ago. Everything that had happened in my life for the past year was clouded by cancer. And quite honestly, there were times during the past year that I never thought any of this would happen for me. I was too scared to even let myself think about something as long term as a 30-year mortgage.
Not any more. I'm so stinkin' happy I can hardly stand to be around myself. I've got big plans, and it all starts now. I probably appreciate it all more than I would have before cancer, but that's ok -- I deserve something positive from that experience. So, feel free to slap me if I'm boring you with the details of my new kitchen or discussion of what color to paint my bathroom that doesn't even exist yet. I'm just a little excited.
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