How Do We Sleep While Our Beds Are Burning?
I feel like I've been complaining a lot lately, and I don't want to be a whiny complainer. I'm just so tired I'm getting very cranky. The radiation makes me tired, but the hot flashes are keeping me from sleeping.
I normally sleep on my right side or my stomach, and I can't now because that is where my burns are, so I've been trying to sleep on my left side. It might work if the hot flashes didn't keep forcing me to kick off the covers. I used to get up and just fold the covers back up to make my bed. Now I have to completely reassemble a bed that has been demolished by thrashing each night.
I think I've dealt pretty well with baldness, nausea and bone pain. But I just cannot find a graceful way to deal with hot flashes. It's bad enough that I have to go through this now, but to know that I'll have to go through it again in about 25 years is just ridiculous!
Tomorrow is another big doctor's appointment day. I will see my oncologist, have some blood drawn, my port flushed (hopefully for the last time before it's removed!) and probably get started on Tamoxifen. I have a whole list of questions, as usual, so hopefully he's set aside plenty of time to deal with me. Top of the list is hot flash help since it sounds like that will get worse for a while once I start on Tamoxifen. Urgh.
I normally sleep on my right side or my stomach, and I can't now because that is where my burns are, so I've been trying to sleep on my left side. It might work if the hot flashes didn't keep forcing me to kick off the covers. I used to get up and just fold the covers back up to make my bed. Now I have to completely reassemble a bed that has been demolished by thrashing each night.
I think I've dealt pretty well with baldness, nausea and bone pain. But I just cannot find a graceful way to deal with hot flashes. It's bad enough that I have to go through this now, but to know that I'll have to go through it again in about 25 years is just ridiculous!
Tomorrow is another big doctor's appointment day. I will see my oncologist, have some blood drawn, my port flushed (hopefully for the last time before it's removed!) and probably get started on Tamoxifen. I have a whole list of questions, as usual, so hopefully he's set aside plenty of time to deal with me. Top of the list is hot flash help since it sounds like that will get worse for a while once I start on Tamoxifen. Urgh.
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